My significant other, that I've been with for about 6 months now, has schizophrenia. We think it's SPD, simply because he understands that he hallucinates and hears voices that aren't there, but he can't grasp the concept of reality at all. He's very paranoid and lately he's been having blackouts.

He recently lost insurance so he hasn't been on medication, also he had started to not take his anti-psychotic meds because he didn't like how they made him feel = slow. Having been about a month or two without medication, his temper and emotions started becoming affected by the lack of the meds left in his system and when we would fight, he loses his temper really quick and occasionally get violent = foaming at the mouth, literally.

After going through a very emotional day, lots of crying/emotions, we had some friends over and we were having a good time, when he comes to sit behind me and rest his head on my shoulder. He gets really close to my ear and then whispers "kill them", it took me a minute to realize what he just said, and when I turned to him and asked what he said he had no idea what I was talking about = I told him he'd said that and he did not believe me. Later on, I asked him about it again and he told me he just blacked out, he didn't even remember leaning on my shoulder.

I'm worried about him, and I really don't know what to do about it. We're trying to get him on insurance as soon as possible but we don't have a high enough income right now to get him the insurance he needs. Recently, he hasn't been getting a lot of sleep either, could this cause the blackouts and/or the increased "psychotic episodes"? Please help..

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